It was my birthday the other day. And not any ordinary birthday! This was the time when I turned 18, a moment to day good bye to the first journey of my young life, a journey traveled by a developing woman who spent the years of her adolescence trying to get to terms with an overwhelming libido.
The young they say have the energy of the sun, a melting fusion of forces that pushes us forward. Under the clock of my developing sexuality it felt more like a hurricane, such was the strength of my burgeoning sensuality and sexual desires.
Adolescents and teenagers are told to thread carefully around their sexuality and desires and now that I am 18, I am glad that I did not stray too far away from this very wise path. Of course, I had the occasional boyfriend, young males with hormones to burn and exchanged with them more than the occasional passionate kisses.
Under the cover of the moonlight, during powerful embraces, I often felt the hard and rising strength of their cocks and allowed myself the occasional moments during which I willingly learned to imprint the sensations of their cock in my young hands. Up and down it would go, and oh! How much I enjoyed the feeling of control, the gentle teasing of the fingers around the cock, moving the skin slowly up and down until finally the boyfriend of the day would start to breath heavily and suddenly freeze before the powerful release of his orgasm. I will not say how young I was when I felt the rush of a male orgasm spread all over me, but one thing was sure, I could not wait until the day when I would feel a cock inside of me.
But as a reasonable teenager, I kept true to myself and to the belief that sex must wait until the age of 18 before it can take place.
And so here I am, barely legal in terms of age, and adolescent yesterday only, and not allowed to enjoy sex the legal way. Yet 18 still rhymes with teen and even though the temptation is there for me to let my sexual desires go wild, I know that I must be careful and let it run its course, naturally, with purpose and intent so that each adventure, each kiss, each exploration of the body is meaningful and enjoyable.
Yes, I am a barely legal 8 teen year young, not yet fully woman, but with desires and few inhibitions.
I am getting there.. Barely!